Loving Myself with Health and Exercise

From my lack of postings you may have noticed I've been quite absent. Why you ask? To be honest I'm struggling. For a while I have had VERY low self esteem and have no feelings of self worth and it's gotta stop. I really want to change this and to start I'm taking my focus off of losing weight. It's not doing me any good as I am placing all of my worth on the number on a scale and it sucks.

I'm putting my scale away. If I feel good, I should feel good and that shouldn't change because of some stupid number. But don't think I'm going to be slacking on my health either. If anything I think I'm going to try to eat healthier and exercise more, not to lose weight but to know I'm doing all I can to be healthy. Healthy Ashley = Happy Ashley! For now I'm going to set up a schedule for the days that I need to workout but I'm allowing myself to do anything I want, as long as I am working my body.

Health and Exercise is my first self given assignment towards helping me find self worth. I'll focus on it for a month, see how it helps and what I can add/change. Here's to a happier healthier me!

"Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don't kill their husbands..." -Elle Freakin Woods

C25K!

So I've been lacking in the blogging aspect of my life but thankfully not so much in the exercising part. I am starting Week 4 of C25K tomorrow. I actually look forward to working out and improving my running.

I think I've been avoiding posting in this blog because I'm afraid that I'll jinx myself. But I figure that it's not luck what I'm doing. I'm finally in control of myself and my goals. I'm so excited to continue and eventually finish C25K and continue on to more running plans.

BTW weigh in on last sunday was 158.2! :)

Playing Catch Up

Well I was a good girl today and worked out AND cleaned the kitchen. But my work is not done, I need to start packing. Yeah, that's right, my husband and I are moving! Not out of state, or even out of town, just a mile or so away. But still, it will be SO nice to finally have a house. Technically we are downsizing but we aren't going to feel self conscious about our house like we do now. We currently live in a trailer park. 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms is not a bad way to start out but the manager never calls us back, we have only had 1 thing fixed that we have complained about and the neighborhood is CRUMMY!! We will be moving into 3 bedrooms 1.5 bathrooms but the kitchen is huge! The neighborhood is great and I feel safe walking out the door.

I'm currently pillaging boxes from my work and we are going to move over slowly. We plan on living there officially on May 1st. Transition photos? I think so!

Standstill

It sucks really. Everything is on hold. I'm waiting for my younger sister to move back home (within a week) before starting C25K because she wants to join me. I finally contacted Amazon filing a claim for a refund (which I got in 2 days) so I've placed a new order. Hopefully this order won't be disappointing like the last one. AND I'm still trying to get a key to the gym from my landlord. My husband is calling them basically everyday. They guy said that he would go tot the office and see if there are extra keys. It's been two weeks and we still haven't heard from them. And now their phone is mysteriously never on or they "can't answer right now." People REALLY annoy me when they beat around the bush. Just tell me that I can't have a key and stop leading me on!!

I should be getting an exercise bike though. Not a fancy shmancy one but it will get the job done. Hopefully Shawn will use it while playing games or watching shows because he hasn't exercised since the military and I worry about him. At least I'm getting him to drink less soda though.

Some side news: I won something! Exercise Anywhere cards from Workout Mommy. I should be getting them soon and when I do expect some photos and a review!

Expect frequent updates!

Workout Schedules and Goals!

I figure I should make it official. This weekly schedule is pretty generic. I don't want to get too specific if I decide to start a different exercise program.

My Weekly Workout Schedule

Monday: Cardio, yoga + daily workout
Tuesday: Xtrain, strength + daily workout
Wednesday: Cardio, yoga + daily
Thursday: Active Rest Day!
Friday: Cardio, Strength + daily
Saturday: Xtrain, yoga + daily
Sunday: Cardio, strength + daily

Daily Workout (1-2 hours before bed)

Pushups -2 sets of 15
Crunches- 50 right, 50 left, 50 center, 50 butt lifts
Wall sits: 3 sets of 30 sec
Bicyles: 2 sets of 15 each side
Tricep Dips: 2 sets of 20
Squats: 2 of 15
Lunges: 2 of 15 each side

Long Term Goals for Oct 2009
Weigh 130
Run an 8 minute mile
Fit into a size 6
50 Pushups in a row

Goals for the Week
Follow my weekly and night workouts
Track my calories
Get at least 7 hours of sleep a night

Intake: 1520
Exercise: 30 min Turbo Jam, Daily workout

Getting Down To It

-Taken after my run today. Excuse the squinty eyes, very windy and dusty today!


This past week has been crazy! My boss is finally done with jury duty and I'm back to a full schedule at the usual time. My younger sister is also moving back into town which means I have a workout buddy again! Yay!

This weekend I'm finally taking notice to everything I'm doing wrong. Mainly my diet. I'm tracking calories so that I know where I stand. Today was perfect until dinner. Shawn loves these enchiladas that I make and asked me to make them. Well I did and afterwords I did up the recipe to find out how many calories are in each serving. Can you guess? 1,111!!!!!! Oh my gosh! I almost threw up right then and there. I exclaimed to my husband, "I'm never making those enchiladas again!" I explained and as disappointed as he seemed he was supportive. I'm trying to find a healthy recipe for enchiladas, one that won't make me feel dirty serving our (way in the) future children. I can't believe it, that's almost my daily goal! I didn't eat that much for breakfast and dinner. It scares me, makes me wonder what else is sneaking by.

I'm starting a running program sometime in the next few weeks. My sister wants me to wait until she's living down here, so I'll just keep up with my videos.

I finally filed a claim with Amazon. I still want Jillian Michael's: Burn Fat, Boost Metabolism, and will probably just get it from amazon themselves. I'm also still trying to get a key to our gym. I plan on using it daily and will try to call about it tomorrow.

See you tomorrow, I'm going to post my weekly/daily workouts!
Intake: 1,857 (thanks evil enchilladas!)
Exercise: Run/walk 20 min

New Habit

It's not fitness/health related but just as important. I'm doing the kitty litter everyday! I've been keeping on it for about 2 weeks now. Seriously, kitty litter is my least favorite chore...ever. But it needs to be done. And my house doesn't stink anymore, yay!